All for One or One for All

Welcome to Episode 3 of Skin Wars… This one packs quite a punch you guys! Where do I even begin?!?!? Let’s just start at the beginning with the small challenge, POP ART! Most of you may not know what I am referring to because my piece was unfortunately not shown on this episode. Not going to lie, it wasn’t anything super special and I guess it would have been a bigger slap to my ego if they had a full episode on the judges hating on my work hahaha. Thank you Skin Wars for sparing me the shame on this one. It wasn’t terrible but just not my greatest work.

So the judges Robin Slonina and RuPaul tell us to make a run for a table of luggage and grab your favorite, which inside revealed  our model (male or female) and a prop to inspire our theme. So I had the pleasure of working with a camera. Since we were dating our paints back to an earlier era I decided to take a little bit of today and  show what it would have been for women, back in the day, to take selfies of themselves. Not quite sure where I was going with it, but no time to think it through fully, so I just ran with it! Instead of regular dots I decided to make them small hearts to show her love for herself.She shows a little skin by pulling her shirt away towards her mid drift to show her rebellion of being a classy lady! On her chest i painted Polaroid selfies falling down as if coming out of the camera.  Speaking of the camera, do note that I totally forgot about my prop and quickly covered it in black paint (FAIL). When you are limited on time you tend to get distracted and forget about a few details… sometimes you have to cut ideas out and that was one that should not have been cut! I soaked that in and noted that for the next challenges! Those mini challenges are tough! But RuPaul did tell me to always love my selfie… GOT IT! Here is my final photo for that challenge. Not top 3 material but worthy of a photo (haha).


On to the elimination challenge! The judges then bring on the surprise that we will not be painting by ourselves and that we will be paired up with another contestant. Now this could has the possibility of going terribly wrong. We are all in it for ourselves and now we have to make sure that the other person doesn’t drag you down! Who will be my partner?!? Will we get along, are we going to agree or disagree on a theme?!?! All of these questions running through my mind! Rebecca announces that Michael will be my partner and this immediate load of pressure gets released from my shoulders. At this point me and Michael have become really close friends and I thoroughly enjoy his carefree attitude. I work better with partners that always make sure to have fun in the process. This keeps the tension low and the stress as minimal as possible. So we have had a long day at this point and now we have to go home and figure out a plan of action. Now RuPaul is always making comments on “Listening to the Universe” to Michael so we both decided that our piece was going to tell a story through movement. They are living and breathing canvases why shouldn’t there be movement to bring the artwork to life. So we stay up most of the night literally dancing in our underwear to try and nail down poses that we want our models to land in for that perfect balance for our final photo. YES- There is a story in which you are lucky enough to hear, because the show edited it out and it is a darn good story! We are quite proud of our final piece.

So with little sleep we head into the studio to tackle this large task at hand. Michael brings out the child inside of me so we are really just enjoying our time together for the most part. You have to remember that we are so stressed out that it is hard to find time to just sit back and enjoy the moment. Michael says and does whatever is on his mind so it was a breathe of fresh air to allow myself to embrace that characteristic and just not be such a tight A$$. Not going to lie… when the time came down to minutes remaining we were both in a panic (as usual) and our carefree attitude went out the window. We had so many moving elements and poses that we had to accommodate for all of them instead of just having a stand still pose like all of the other contestants. Side note- The models are awesome and don’t get enough recognition for their hard work and dedication to our crazy ideas. They have to stand there for hours wearing basically just paint and play the role we need them to (WE LOVE YOU GUYS). Time to take this party to the judging table!

Here is our story and our on stage presentation:
Our story is of an artist who blankets his creativity in fear of allowing his true self to be seen(male model hunched over embracing himself). The moment he is able to look fear in the eyes (arms pop out and begin to move behind him- with painted eyes all down each arm) he transcends into a realm where the ego does not exist. He becomes one with the universe (center model stands up-representing all chakras and ego). Darkness will inevitably emerge from the shadows (model representing darkness stands up and hugs universe) But without darkness, there is no light (light model stands up). By allowing himself to be centered with the universe, he is able to find a delicate balance between both darkness and light (his head lines up to with the eyeball painted on the center model and darkness and light join hands with the universe and fall apart in a balancing position supporting one another). Thus giving his creative powers the ability to prevail. -THE END
me and michaels painting

In all honesty it is a story about us as artists, scared of being judged on our work that is so personal to us individually, but to just allow ourselves to love the work no matter the ridicule. Pushing past the fear of judgement and criticism and allowing yourself to enjoy the work, finding a balance in life. We knew that we were taking a chance on being different, but isn’t that what art is all about… who wants to be the same?!?

We thought we were doing great when Robin says how much she loves the movement and the colors were popping. Ru was digging our play off of listening to the universe. Me and Michael stood proud by our piece because not only was it visually pleasing but it meant more to us to tell our story and be proud of our work together and how much we enjoyed the experience. Of course when it came down to the fine details we had to get real and go back into competition mode because again, we are only in it for ourselves. So not only did we have to find mutual ground to work together and survive the challenge without killing each other,  now we were forced into tearing each other apart piece by piece. Who  did what… what don’t you like about what they painted… basically it is NOT all for one anymore! I can take a swift punch in the gut when it is needed. My work definitely could have been better on those light faces for sure… I mean I do portraits for a living guys… i know when my work is shitty (lol). But in the time we were given, there was no time for nitpicking and we have 4 people to cover head to toe in a short time! So Craig called us a train wreck (BAHAHA). I’m sorry it just made me laugh really hard because if you cant take things lightly then the pressure will get you down in life. Needless to say we were thrown into the bottom along with Kyera and Alison.

For the record- Kyera is one of the kindest souls you will ever meet (true story)! Alison was missing her little boy and I can’t relate to her specifically as I do not have children, but being separated from my boyfriend who I have lived with for years was extremely heartbreaking to not have him there as my rock when I needed the comfort. So we all learned to support each other and become the family we needed. Tears were shed quite a bit! The struggle is real you guys! So we are standing there not knowing what was going to happen. Michael and I had such a different concept from everyone else that we didn’t know which way the judges were going to lean. The build up the tension for sure… the long dramatic pause before the judges announce that Michael and I are safe (Brow wiped on that one). We live to see another paint day!!!! Yes we embrace each other after because ultimately we are happy that it didn’t come down to one of us going home, showing our love for each other through it all. Sadly enough Kyera takes the hit on having to go home when Alison made it clear that she wasn’t ready to continue the fight. It was a sad day in the house for us at that point! Be sure to tune in next week as we have the pleasure of painting RuPauls Drag Race Drag Queens! And don’t forget to laugh at yourself every now and then…
I will leave you with this final quote 
“Permanence, perseverance and persistence in spite of all obstacles, discouragements and impossibilities: It is this, that in all things distinguishes the strong soul from the weak.”

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